This is been a difficult week... week and a half really. We are having issues with our three year old hitting at school. He's not hitting hard enough to hurt the kids or make them cry.. but it's a problem that needs to be addressed. His teacher and I have done everything we know to do to try and correct this behavior .. the ball is in his court now. Praying,praying, praying this stops soon!
It's so crazy how different the boys are. Thing 1 is quiet, picky, and very loving. And then there's Thing 2..oh wow he's LOUD, isn't scared of anything and is very rough.
We almost didn't make it to church this morning because of him. I'm so tired.... tired of fighting with him, trying to teach him to play nice, and just plain ole' tired (he's been waking up a 2am EVERY morning) This morning.. it all just came to a head I think. I'm exhausted physically and emotionally. I'm starting to get short and crabby with people and I don't mean to.... that's not me.
Thing 2 was being difficult and Thing 1 wasn't helping matters. Hubby is on night shift so I'm really trying to keep everyone quiet. I was sitting here in the living room I wanted to just yell ENOUGH! But I would have woke up the Hubs. I sat down to do my devotion,it's a parenting one through YouVersion, great stuff. This morning's title- Accountable To God.
First little paragraph - God gave you children, and you are expected to raise them for His glory. You are a steward of God's children and, as a steward, you must answer to your Master for your efforts. SMACK . lol I've been leaving God out of my problems... it's all about me and what I'm going through, not about God and how he can help. So, head em' up moooove em' out.. I'm dragging these screaming kids to church. I thought, even if the sermon has nothing for me, I can at least sit for an hour and not have to listen to my kids fight over the DS. Horrible, I know, but I doubt I'm the only parent who has thought that on a Sunday morning.
Thank you God for meeting me in the pew. The sermon series has been about the Armor of God We were on the shield of faith. Boy.. do I want a shield to hid behind right now, maybe a set of earplugs too lol.Pastor's points this morning were about what different arrows the devil is shooting at you to try and get you down. Fear, doubt, despair, failure, defeat. Fear.. not so much doubt, check, despair, check, failure, nah not really, defeat, check. There has been so much going on with the kids and with me that I have been doubting myself, which if left unchecked tends to lead to despair and ultimately defeat. You may say that failure and defeat are the same.. how can you feel one but not the other. Well, I don't think I have failed... I have been defeated, I'm down but not out. It makes sense in my head ... guess that's what matters. Back to my sermon notes, I love to take notes ^_^ I need to remember God is in control, He is good, He is with me, and He is VICTORIOUS. One of the verses mentioned is Romans 16:20 -The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet, the grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.
So, tomorrow... I'm going to pray on my armor and remember the one thing I keep having to tell myself.. HE's got this!
